About eight months into my clairvoyant training I hit a BIG wall. I would venture to say that most psychics hit this wall multiple times in their reading careers, but this was the first time I hit it.
It’s the “This is bullshit” wall. It can also take the form of a “I’m a fake” wall.
So, in my anger, I decided that I was going to prove once and for all that I was a fake and needed to quit this tomfoolery and get on with my life. So I devised a plan to sabotage my readings and thus prove once and for all that I was not a psychic. The End. Close the book.
My plan was quite simple. I decided that for the next eight or so readings that no matter what I saw, I was going to tell the person in the chair that they had left lower back pain. Now, what are the odds that eight out of eight people would have left lower back pain? Pretty damn low, so when the person told me I was wrong, I would thus be validated in my failure and end my career as a psychic. I told no one of my plan.
Person by person sat down in front of me and like I mentioned above, I said “I see that you have left lower back pain.” And to my complete and utter surprise, every singleone of them said, “You’re right!” (And for you haters, I was not reading in a retirement community.)
What are the odds?
It was then that I realized that maybe this wasn’t The Renee’ Show. Maybe, there was something larger than myself pulling the strings and maybe I’d better just stick with the program and stop playing games. I was where I was supposed to be.
I so needed validation at that point in my training and the Universe didn’t fail to deliver. It is because of that experience, that I still read today.